I contribute Films and Blog about: Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, Postnatal Depression and Trauma,

Related Conditions: AgoraphobiaBody Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), Eating DisordersPanic Disorder.

Louise Bown

My name is Louise, I am 20 years old and I hate butter on my sandwiches. You have no idea. Seriously. I can eat bread and butter just fine, even buttered toast. But when it comes to butter on sandwiches I just can't. Oh and I also have Anxiety and Depression. Potentially PTSD too but, you see, I haven’t got a piece of paper to say that I have it. So I can’t really say that I do, can I? I mean it’s quite funny really, when I look at the so called ‘check list’ I definitely tick the majority of the boxes. But I’m not a professional so I can’t diagnose myself. PTSD has recently showed it’s face after going through trauma. Anxiety and Depression on the other hand have been in my life for quite a long time (haha ‘Anxiety and Depression’ makes them sound like a troublesome duo don’t you think? Like Tweedledum and Tweedledee).​

 

When I was born my mom was diagnosed with Postnatal Depression (fully understandable considering the circumstances). My mom had a condition known known as Cholestasis, she didn’t know this until she went in for a checkup, which meant I needed to be born ASAP. Imagine this: going in for a check-up; relishing the final few (5 to be exact) weeks of peace until you have to look after a human; slightly nervous but knowing that you have a bit more time to prepare - only to be told that that wasn’t going to be the case and that you were going to leave your so-called ‘checkup’ with said human. You can’t because it’s absolutely terrifying. So the aftermath is completely plausible. Doesn’t mean it didn’t affect me though. It was definitely the catalyst for my mental health issues. Growing up without an emotional connection to those closest to you affected my ability to form close relationships with others - and I suppose it still does.

 

Please note that I am in no way shape or form trying to insinuate that children whose parents experience some form of Postnatal Depression will end up like me. This is merely my story.

So, why do I want to blog with AMHA? Well why not is my answer to that. I've always been really enthusiastic about writing, especially when it comes to my personal experiences (where better to hear something than from the horse's mouth aye?). Mental health has always been something which I am incredibly particularly passionate about, not only because it contributes to my day-to-day life, but also because the stigma which still exists surrounding Mental Health baffles me - I mean its the 21st Century cmon people! Also, AMHA seems right up my street (don't you think their website is ace?!). Working with a wonderful organisation whilst also doing something that I love really is a no brainer for me.

 

I just can't believe I'm doing this in all honesty - it's so cool!

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May 16, 2018

An entire week is dedicated to raising the awareness of mental health. I can’t help but feel that this highlights not only how many people are affected by mental health issues, but also how much more work is needed to be done in order to break down the stigma surrounding them.  Don’t get me wrong, a lot has improved since revelers paid to visit asylums and gawk at people who were suffering from various mental illnesses. But is...

February 17, 2018

Before I go any further I have to emphasise that my relationship is not the cause of my depression (don’t want my SO to get the wrong idea aha). If anything, it’s quite the opposite. And I must also confess that this was supposed to be a Valentine's post – but I was a bit busy spending quality time with the person I don’t see as often as I would like to as well as being ill (#SorryNotSorry if you caught my cold). Anyway – onto...

October 19, 2017

These past few months or so I've realised that whilst this crazy journey called life is progressing at 100 miles per hour, it is important – no it is vital - that we all take a few moments to breathe. I feel like as humans we have a habit of underestimating the daily stresses that we experience. I know that because of my mental health even ‘small' things feel like the heaviest weight you could possibly imagine. Getting out of...

August 10, 2017

I knew I wouldn’t have much. But I just thought I’d have more. I’m probably making zero sense but in all honesty my life doesn’t make much sense either. Do you ever get like that? The truth is that I’ve had a bad few days, the worst ones in a while if I’m honest. And I really don’t want to sound self-centred telling you but I didn’t know what else to do, other than write about it. And I thought I had more time before I felt li...

July 20, 2017

My name is Louise, I am 20 years old and I hate butter on my sandwiches. You have no idea. Seriously. I can eat bread and butter just fine, even buttered toast. But when it comes to butter on sandwiches I just can't. Oh and I also have Anxiety and Depression. Potentially PTSD too but, you see, I haven’t got a piece of paper to say that I have it. So I can’t really say that I do, can I? I mean it’s quite funny really, when I lo...

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